Ini Nusuk banget..

Mungkin kalo cerita gw sama AJ itu ada discene film FTV gitu, dan pake drama nyanyi - nyanyi, pasti AJ bakal nyanyi begini didepan gw yang nangis tergugu gitu.

Usher - Separated

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn’t have wings
If love was a sky
We’d be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn’t for me and you

If love was an oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because it’s not in our hearts

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we’re lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We’re not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn’t for me and you

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It’s sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can’t deny
I can’t say we didn’t try to make it work for you and i
I know it hurts so much but it’s best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I’ll walk away so you don’t have to see me cry
It’s killing me so, why don’t you go

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

I’m sorry we didn’t make it

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

heartbeats fast
colors and promises
how to be brave
how can i love when i’m afraid to fall
but watching you stand alone
all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
one step closer

i have died everyday waiting for you
darling don’t be afraid i have loved you
for a thousand years
i love you for a thousand more

time stands still
beauty in all she is
i will be brave
i will not let anything take away
what’s standing in front of me
every breath
every hour has come to this
one step closer

i have died everyday waiting for you
darling don’t be afraid i have loved you
for a thousand years
i love you for a thousand more

and all along i believed i would find you
time has brought your heart to me
i have loved you for a thousand years
i love you for a thousand more

one step closer
one step closer

i have died everyday waiting for you
darling don’t be afraid i have loved you
for a thousand years
i love you for a thousand more

and all along i believed i would find you
time has brought your heart to me
i have loved you for a thousand years
i love you for a thousand more

Gue lagi suka banget sama lagu ini, gatau kenapa kedengerannya manis banget ditelinga gue, hehehe, padahal lagi gak suka - sukaan sama orang, tapi tuh kalo denger ni lagu adem banget, dalem aja gitu udah gitu jadi suka senyum - senyum sendiri, aaaakkk !

Nostalgia Serambi Syi'arul Islam :D

Tiba tiba sore ini jadi kefikiran satu mesjid yang selalu jadi latar hampir setiap cerpen yang aku buat, ya Mesjid Syi'arul Islam, kuningan - Jawa Barat. Mesjid yang punya segunang kenangan spiritualku, baik yang senang maupun yang dramatis berair mata.
Sejuk, ya sejuk adalah atmosphere yang terasa ketika kita berada di dalamnya, entahlah memang selalu begitu perasaanku saat ada disana. Syiarul Islam adalah satu-satunya tempat yang mengenalkan aku akan indahnya islam, nyamannya jilbab, hangatnya ukhuwah dan.....ya merah jambu yang islami. Ya aku tahu aku bukanlah sosok akhwat atau aktivis dakwah yang hanif, yang kemana2 menggunakan jilbab lebar, aku masih begini masih dengan jilbab anehku, hahahaha. Masih dengan jeans bututku, tapi salahkah aku menulis tentang islam dengan hatiku? :) mari bijak.
Ah, sore ini ya sore ini aku jadi sangat merindukan mesjid SI kebanggaan warga Kuningan Jawa Barat yang sekarang sudah jauh lebih megah dibanding dengan saat masa - masa sekolahku dulu.
Aku rindu atmospherenya, aku rindu kajiannya, aku rindu i'tikafnya, aku rindu mabitnya, aku rindu halaqohnya, aku rindu semua tentang SI. Aku masih ingat saat aku dan ikhwan itu mencuri2 pandang saat ia hendak tampil menjadi salah satu pengisi acara di lantai dasar mesjid itu, hahaha kami tahu itu tidak boleh dilakukan, apalagi bagi mereka para aktifis dakwah, tapi entahlah darimana dtangnya keberanian itu, kami saling tatap untuk beberapa detik sebelum akhirnya ia tampil bersama rekan - rekan nasyidnya yang mulai digilai oleh akhwat-akhwat sepotong itu, seperti aku, hahahah.
Ya, saling tahu perasaan masing2, namun kami tahu bahwa ikatan pacaran hanya akan mengotori citra dakwah yang kami junjung saat itu. Karena itu kami hanya berani menunjukan perasaan kami lewat do'a saja, saling membangunkan tahajud satu sama lain, lalu berkirim salam dan merequest nasyid - nasyid yang merepresentasi perasaan kami ke Astia FM, hahahaha, itu mungkin adalah sebuah kesalahan, tapi sepertinya kesalahan manis masa remaja dulu. Ya, siapa sangka sih, aku yang akhwat sepotong dan tidak cantik ini bisa dekat dengan seorang ikhwan sholih, cerdas dan bahkan digilai oleh banyak akhwat lainnya secara diam - diam maupun terang-terangan karena pesona fisiknya yang subhanallah. Entahlah aku tak mengerti apa menariknya aku! Baiklah masa itu sudah lewat, kami terpisah begitu saja, padahal masa - masa kedekatan kami cukup lama, sekitar 4/5tahun, ya kami terpisah saat ia mulai lulus sekolah dan bekerja di luar kota, lalu komunikasi kami tersendat entah karena apa persisnya aku lupa. Lalu aku mulai berubah, juga karena satu dan lain hal yang membuat aku berhenti dari aktifitas itu. Aku kembali akrab dengan jeans dan jilbab modern, dan ia mulai kaget saat kami bertemu lagi, sementara ia, masih dengan ciri khas ikhwannya yang tidak tergerus oleh zaman, ah akhi, semoga kau terus istiqomah yah dengan keimananmu. Walau bagaimanapun jodoh adalah rahasia Nya. Semoga Alloh mencintaimu selalu ya Akhi Al-Banna :D

My heart soundtrack Now

Kebenaran

Album : Berhenti Sejenak
Munsyid : Justice Voice
http://liriknasyid.com

Rintik hujan menetes perlahan
Menepis lembut butiran kabut
dinding-dinding kaca
membersitkan cahaya
nan meredup
Nampak samar cahya kebenaran
berbaur lekat dengan prasangka
ketulusan jiwa terbalut praduga merana
akankah kutemukan hati mutiara
yang memancarkan cinta tiadakan sirna
Reff. yang tetap bercahaya dalam gelap
nampak indah dalam benderang
berkilauan sinarnya penuh pesona
yang menyejukkan siapapun jua

akan ku rengkuh dalam kasih Kau
kubiarkan di hati bersemayam abadi
takkan ku biarkan pergi
kujaga kesucian Mu kasih
kudengar nurani Mu buatku berteduh
untuk selamanya.

Nih Buat Kamu..juga kamu..

Lirik Lagu Raisa – Serba Salah
harus ku akui semuanya telah berbeda
lelah menjalani semua serba salah
apalagi salahku, apalagi salahmu, ku tak mengerti
apalagi salahku, apalagi salahmu, apalagi
sudah lupakan segala cerita antara kita
ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin
ku terluka karna cinta, karna cinta
lelah menjalani semua serba salah
apalagi salahku, apalagi salahmu, ku tak mengerti
apalagi salahku, dan apalagi salahmu, apalagi
sudah lupakan segala cerita antara kita
ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin kau terluka karna cinta
bukan karna rasa itu tlah sirna, maafkanlah
ku hanya tak ingin, ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin ku terluka karna cinta
oh bukan ku tak berharap kembali padamu
tapi pahami ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin terluka yeah yeah yeah
sudah lupakan segala cerita antara kita
ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin kau terluka karna cinta
dan bukan karna rasa itu tlah sirna, maafkanlah
ku hanya tak ingin, ku tak ingin, ku tak ingin ku terluka karna cinta
(tak ingin, tak ingin, tak ingin kau terluka)
(tak ingin, tak ingin, tak ingin ku terluka) lupakanlah semuanya
(tak ingin, tak ingin, tak ingin kau terluka) ku tak ingin kau terluka karna cinta
(tak ingin, tak ingin, tak ingin kau terluka)
(tak ingin, tak ingin, tak ingin ku terluka) tak ingin kau terluka
(tak ingin, tak ingin, tak ingin kau terluka)

Lirik Lagu Raisa Apalah (Arti Menunggu) Lyrics

telah lama aku bertahan
demi cinta wujudkan sebuah harapan
namun ku rasa cukup ku menunggu
semua rasa tlah hilang
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net
sekarang aku tersadar
cinta yang ku tunggu tak kunjung datang
apalah arti aku menunggu
bila kamu tak cinta lagi
namun ku rasa cukup ku menunggu
semua rasa tlah hilang
sekarang aku tersadar
cinta yang ku tunggu tak kunjung datang
apalah arti aku menunggu
bila kamu tak cinta lagi
dahulu kaulah segalanya
dahulu hanya dirimu yang ada di hatiku
namun sekarang aku mengerti
tak perlu ku menunggu sebuah cinta yang sama
sekarang aku tersadar
cinta yang ku tunggu tak kunjung datang
apalah arti aku menunggu
bila kamu tak cinta lagi
sekarang aku tersadar
cinta yang ku tunggu tak kunjung datang
apalah arti aku menunggu
bila kamu tak cinta lagi

Source: http://liriklaguindonesia.net/r/raisa/raisa-apalah-arti-menunggu/#ixzz1aSyw56l1

Aku Ingin Mencintai-Mu

Album : Muhasabah cinta
Munsyid : Edcouctic
http://liriknasyid.com

Tuhan betapa aku malu atas semua yang Kau beri padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMU kecewa
entah mungkin karna ku terlena sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan berulang kali agar aku kembali
dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia untuk menghambakanMU
betapa tak ada apa-apanya aku dihadapanMU
reff:aku ingin mencintaiMU
setulusnya,sebenar-benar aku cinta
dalam do'a dalam ucapan dalam setiap langkahku
aku ingin mendekatiMU selamanya
sehina apapun diriku
kuberharap untuk bertemu denganMU ya Rabbi

Maher Zain - Open Your Eyes

Open Your Eyes

Album :
Munsyid : Maher Zain
http://liriknasyid.com

Open Your Eyes
Look around yourselves
Can't you see this wonder
Spreaded infront of you
The clouds floating by
The skies are clear and blue
Planets in the orbits
The moon and the sun
Such perfect harmony

Let's start question in ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..
No..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Look inside yourselves
Such a perfect order
Hiding in yourselves
Running in your veins
What about anger love and pain
And all the things you're feeling
Can you touch them with your hand?
So are they really there?

Lets start question in ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us?
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..?
No..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

When a baby's born
So helpless and weak
And you're watching him growing..
So why deny
Whats in front of your eyes
The biggest miracle of life..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we'll see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Open your eyes and hearts and minds
If you just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Allah..
You created everything
We belong to You
Ya Robb we raise our hands
Forever we thank You..
الحمد الله
Alhamdulillah..

For The Rest of My Life - Maher Zain :D

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally

Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO
And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

Michael Buble - Lost

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear the cross
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Sok tegar, dengan senyum yang tergaris simpul, saya pilih option Block @amyy (somethinglah saya gak hafal) padahal tangan gemeteran, bingung antara block apa jangan ya, tapi keraguan saya pun sirna sesaat setelah ngeliat TL dia dan TL sang kekasih tercintanya, dan Ok FIX, saya block anda yah, maaf saya kok gak sanggup yah ngeliat kamu bahagia, saya bukannya gak senang kamu bahagia, tapi saya cuma gak sanggup aja ngeliatnya secara langsung, sakit gitu, heheheh. Jadi yah makanya saya tampil sebagai pengecut sekarang, mendo'akan buat kebahagiaan kamu, tapi tak akan pernah mau menunjukan batang hidung atau TL saya di twitter kamu, pun sebaliknya. Saya terlalu takut terluka, namun apakah ini sebuah dosa jika saya menyelamatkan hati saya sendiri karena takut terluka oleh kebahagiaan kamu?ahh,,iya ini baru langkah pertama saya pergi dari hidup kamu, langkah berikutnya adalah mengganti nomor ponsel, iya saya akan lakukan itu setelah BB baru saya sampai ke tangan saya, dengan begitu anda pun bisa hidup tenang tanpa bayang - bayang masa lalu kita, dan hidup bahagia bersama si nenk itu, bye dear, bye my ex other half (saya ketik dengan air mata menggenang).
meski jujur saja, saya tak sanggup untuk berkata selamat tinggal kepada 14 dan hari ini soundtrack hati saya pun jadi Goodbye nya Secondhand Serenade, situasi yang persis kayak 2tahunan lalu waktu saya memutuskan untuk pergi juga dari dia..

Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade

It’s a shame that it had to be this way

It’s not enough to say I’m sorry

It’s not enough to say I’m sorry

Maybe I’m to blame

Or maybe were the same

But either way I can’t breathe

Either way I can’t breathe

All I had to say is goodbye

Were better off this way

Were better off this way

I’m alive but I’m losing all my drive

Cause everything we’ve been through

And everything about you

Seemed to be a lie

A guiltless twisted lie

It made me learn to hate you

Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye

Were better off this way

Were better off this way

All I had to say is goodbye

Were better off this way

Were better off this way

And every, everything isn’t only

What it seemed so hold these

Words that you never told me

Its time to say goodbye

Its time to say goodbye

Its time to say goodbye

Goodbye

Bye

Take my hand away

Spell it out

Tell me I was wrong

Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away

Spell it out

Tell me I was wrong

Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away

Spell it out

Tell me I was wrong

Tell me I was wrong

My heart soundtrack Now

I never knew perfection til
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It's not right, not ok
Say the words that you say
Maybe we're better off this way?
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way?
It's better that we break…

A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You're scared and that you think that I'm insane

The city look so nice from here
Pity I can't see it clearly
While you're standing there, it disappears
It disappears

It's not right, not ok
Say the word it should say
Maybe we're better off this way?
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way?
It's better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone
You're fragile and you're cold, but that's all right
Life these days is getting rough
They've knocked you down and beat you up
But it's just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

It's not right, not ok
Say the words that you say
Maybe we're better off this way?
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, not ok
Say the words that you say
Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way?
It's better that we break, baby

            Better That We Break – MAROON 5